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16 June This is horrible and sad...
24 May Falling Up"Broken Heart" In this moment synchronized inside, words that paint a legacy of life A different picture will unfold, a healing finds it's way through Sifted times I take another breath, with an ambience of nothing left So heal my heart rain down your love these waters bring me back to life [Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love There's a healing calling from the wind, there's a healer waiting to begin In timeless places, traced and faceless will I learn to let go Take me to the heights where love controls, far away from home but feels so close This empty heart of mine will fall inside and bring me back to life [Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love You can hold, you can mend You can heal, you can brake I hold cause something etched this way [Chorus] Father, healer deliver me from broken love Stay hear, closer let me hear your voice of love Savior, Redeemer bring me to this place of peace Jesus, guardian my broken heart is so in need 20 April *sigh* i heart rainI love it when it rains. It smells so good. It is providing the trees and grass with nutrients. It moisturizes the skin. Last time it rained while I was here, me and ernie took a walk in the rain. It was nice. I love the sun too but rain is just so fun. Back in the day, when I worked at the boat tours, whenever it rained me and lauren ran out into the rain and played in the rain. I wish I could do that now but it isn't raining hard enough and I have no one to play in the rain with. I was just walking back from the business building and it was really just beginning to rain and I was just kinda smiling and had my head up looking around the whole time. People were funny. They had sweatshirts on with their hoods up, while I'm there in a cut off shirt and gym shorts. They were all walking with their heads down so they wouldn't get their hair/face wet. If I wouldn't have run into anything, I would have been walking with my face towards the sky cause rain is just so fun. Who needs umbrellas anyways, why not enjoy the weather while there is still no snow. I plan on enjoying every little bit of weather while it is still warm and there is no snow. I hope it rains when I go home cause it smells better when it rains up there. I think it is the river. I love living near water too. I think I am just somehow permanently connected with water and I can't imagine not living near it. Sure we have the muskegan here, but it isn't the same. That is one of the only things I miss about home is the saint mary's river. It's that and my dad, mary, the burtons, and i think that is pretty much all i miss about home. Sure I miss my pig but i think i'm allergic to him sadly. I better go study for spanish now. 2 March do they care?"Does Anybody Hear Her"
She is running A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction She is trying But the canyon's ever widening In the depths of her cold heart So she sets out on another misadventure just to find She's another two years older And she's three more steps behind Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? Or does anybody even knows she's going down today Under the shadow of our steeple With all the lost and lonely people Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me Does anybody hear her? Can anybody see? She is yearning For shelter and affection That she never found at home She is searching For a hero to ride in To ride in and save the day And in walks her prince charming And he knows just what to say Momentary lapse of reason And she gives herself away If judgement looms under every steeple If lofty glances from lofty people Can't see past her scarlet letter And we never even met her He is running A hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction for some reason i have just really loved this song lately. whenever i'm home lately, i don't really want to go to church because i get the same fake questions from the same fake people that really don't care, they are just trying to be nice. i on the other hand see through the fakeness. don't get me wrong, i know there are people who actually truely care about me there, i count at most 10. its like since i have started college they have automatically assumed i've become a normal college student but i'm not. another thing that drives me nuts is the fact that they commend some people for doing couragous things, but some of those people are major a-holes. sure its real cool that they are doing something couragous, but they come back for one night, go to canada to get wasted, go to studio 10 to watch girls, and then go to church the next day like nothing happened the night before. another thing about it is, while my mom was sick they all talked to me all the time, but now that it has almost been 2 years since she died, some of them won't talk to me. even the ones i used to see everyday because they used to come visit my mom everyday. they did talk to me after they had found out i went to mississippi, but otherwise they don't. i'd rather they not talk to me at all if they are going to be like that. i just really needed to get that off of my chest. and i just have the urge to put another song down because it is one of my other favorites as of late.
"Stained Glass Masquerade"
Is there anyone that fails Is there anyone that falls Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small Cause when I take a look around Everybody seems so strong I know they'll soon discover That I don't belong So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too So with a painted grin, I play the part again So everyone will see me the way that I see them Are we happy plastic people Under shiny plastic steeples With walls around our weakness And smiles to hide our pain But if the invitation's open To every heart that has been broken Maybe then we close the curtain On our stained glass masquerade Is there anyone who's been there Are there any hands to raise Am I the only one who's traded In the altar for a stage The performance is convincing And we know every line by heart Only when no one is watching Can we really fall apart But would it set me free If I dared to let you see The truth behind the person That you imagine me to be Would your arms be open Or would you walk away Would the love of Jesus Be enough to make you stay and this song brings out another point, some of those people at church act like they do everything right, and they are very obnoxiously "holy" at church. but their children have gone wild or are on the verge, and they don't seem to see it. and church is supposed to be a place of freedom and where your confessions can be kept about anything, but one thing everyone in the church, including me i know i need to work on it too, needs to work on is the gossiping. i hate it, but i know i do it too and i have been trying to work on it. but i need sleep. 13 February thanksthanks, that was greatly appreciated, i'm sorry you have become so bitter towards me...i'll stop wasting your time |
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